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Seven Long Hours

10/3/2017

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 When I opened  my computer yesterday morning, it was past midnight in the US.

I logged onto Facebook and right there on the small side bar, I saw the words "shooting in Las Vegas." My finger made its way to the link, and then my eyes made their way down the article.

It was one of the early reports, and not much was known other than the basic facts - and some numbers.

Shooting in Las Vegas. Where my daughter lives.

She did not pick up the phone when I called the first time, nor the next many times.

I hung on to a text she had sent me several hours before telling me that she was going to the lake. I hung on to a text from her brother telling me that she would never go see this particular concert.

More than anything, I hung on to a feeling in my body that said that if she was hurt, I would know it.

I got dressed, I dialed her number, I went hiking in the hills, I dialed her number. I had my feet in Tuscany and my heart floating somewhere else.

I hung on to a feeling in my body that said that if she was hurt, I would know it.

At 4 pm, I got a text from her. She was camping at the lake. She did not have her phone with her. She had just awakened.

I asked if I could please see her face for a minute. She immediately got on FaceTime,  and I saw her face. Tanned, in nature, and very much alive.

That's when my heart simultaneously exploded in two very distinct directions.

It exploded from having held a possibility at bay for seven long hours, telling myself that "if she was hurt, I would know it." At the very same time, my heart exploded because I was aware that this moment when I could see my girl, healthy and alive was not going to be granted to all parents, siblings, friends, today.

The rest of the evening, the night and today have felt like a haze. A fog made of thick layers of gratitude and bereavement.  And of wondering ... "what the heck is going on?" Followed by so much awe and love for the people who showed up at the very best we can ever hope to show up for each other.

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Vonie
10/3/2017 08:47:46 am

Laura, thank you for your beautiful words and I’m so happy your daughter didn’t attend that concert.
Being away from my daughter and granddaughter these past months has been hard on me and feeling the pain of sorrow for all in Vegas has helped me to see how important they are to me and not this job I dislike.
Looking to find a way back home and to those I love.
Thank you always for the wonderful words you write. You truly are a gift.

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Laura Lavigne link
10/3/2017 10:12:58 am

Oh Vonie - yes, a job we dislike is no reason to be away from the ones who mean the world to us. For those of us who still have that privilege, we need to be good stewards to it.
Be good to you, ok?
XOXO

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Carol Houghton link
10/3/2017 10:54:48 am

Dear Laura- I too had a very stressful experience around this event- my daughter had texted me that evening to say she and her boyfriend had decided to stop in Las Vegas for dinner on their way home to San Diego from a wedding in Colorado (this was after having gotten stuck in their van in a snowstorm until 2 am the morning before!).
I woke up to read all the news and worry- then I found a text from her at about 4 am saying that they were okay. They had heard the sound of what they assumed was a helicopter but instead was the gunshots. They are shaken up but physically fine.
It’s so sad to think of all the parents, friends and families whose lives were altered forever that night. I can only pray that the laws and perspectives of people who have protected the gun laws that allow things like this to happen will be changed as well.
By the way, I had a dream about you that night- that I was with you and Carol in Europe and I was helping you get organized for a new retreat, putting together a checklist on a spreadsheet of all of the things you need to remember for every new retreat. I hope it helped! 💖
Sending you love and prayers for a sweeter life for all of us.

Laura Lavigne link
10/5/2017 03:16:12 am

Carol - how blessed are we who got the text, the call. I think of all the lives shattered that wake up "without" each morning.

And what a terrifying experience for your daughter. So close.
Be good to you and your mommy heart. These moments are such privileges.

PS: I like your dream :)

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