When my daughter was learning to be with horses (note: not really ride, but more be), I heard the extraordinary lady who was mentoring her repeat a particular sentence often. She would say: Trust in Natural Timing. Once, she explained to me that her horses were always true to their Natural Timing, and that she encouraged that. Some days they wanted to interact, some days they didn’t. No story was made about any of it. It was all Natural Timing.
It has been a long time since I have been around my daughter's mentor for a significant amount of time, but her words pop up in my mind often.
I had a rough night. I tossed and I turned for most of it and whether it had to do with Mercury retrograding, the Chinese Herbs I am taking or god knows what, I “woke up” exhausted. And super cranky.
I wrote, walked around for a bit, talked on the phone and still, could not seem to get the motor purring happily. I just wanted to go back to bed and complain to my comforter.
So I did.
I grabbed my laptop on the way to my room and climbed back in bed with a cup of tea. Having given myself permission to “be lazy and feel sorry for myself,” it wasn’t long before I started to get some work done from the safety of my bed.
At noon, I was still up there and had gotten a bunch of work done.
Then my daughter called and darn it, it’s hard for me to be in bad mood too long when I hear her voice. But I tried. I did. I could actually watch myself trying to stay in a bad mood.
Fifteen minutes later, there was no way to fake it. I was ready to be in the world again. The veil had lifted and with it the pity party had moved on.
It all happened in Natural Timing.
Not all mornings are sunny, even when our natural disposition is - which is a heck of a blessing. And when that happens, when we can’t quite connect with our joy, I think that there is some wisdom in not beating ourselves up for it. After all, it really does not serve to feel bad about feeling bad.
So instead, let’s trust in Natural Timing. Let’s trust that the sun is still shining way above the cloud even if don’t feel it, and that it will come back - as soon as it’s time.
Meanwhile, if we are able, a good book, a hot bath, a big cry, extra beautiful music on our way to work and more than anything a good dose of kindness might be just what’s needed.
I wish you a very kind, very Natural Timing kind of day.
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