These two words have been my intimate companions for the past nine months.
I have reached out to them in the middle of nights, at the beginning of days, in the forest, on the beach and in my car.
I have reached out to them when I have known that my little human mind and my big human heart were no match for what was needed.
I have reached out to them when I was afraid to not be smart enough, tough enough to find my way on my own.
And I have been guided. So beautifully.
Guided to say “no more.”
Guided to get on planes, cabs, motorcycles and buses.
Guided to go and guided to stay.
Guided to break and guided to mend.
Guided to love, too.
Guided to share meals, my heart and my home.
To let go of what I have loved, to let go of what made sense and to welcome the wobbly unknown, the barely formed soft-fleshed of what will be.
There is a restfulness to being guided and I know that Rest is part of our healing.
Here’s what I know:
Change can be messy.
One minute we’re clear, one minute we’re lost. And yet, we take action because it’s how we move forward.
Change requires Trust.
Change requires Support. VERY gentle Support.
Change requires Courage.
Change allows us to grow while simultaneously demanding that we grow.
Change kicks our butt and grows our lives.
I find that more and more so many things DON’T matter.
They cross my mind and very quickly something inside of me does a little shrug, a tiny wave, a small “meh.”
I let them go, bless them away like dandelion puffs.
Thoughts, questions, opinions, regrets ...
Making room for the round shiny pieces that do matter. That always did.
"Every time I read your blog I am so profoundly happy I did. The truth you speak is just mindboggling. The real, real voice you have. It makes me almost crazy how much I love your words and your way of telling stories that cut to the quick- and I never have the words to really say how much this all means to me.
You put out so many heartfelt blog pieces that touch my heart and move me down the right path at the right time. Pure beautiful magic girlie. I love you for this.
Thank you for digging in there and finding the gems of wisdom and then just sharing them out as if there's an endless supply ... which with you, there is."
"Thank you for sharing your wonderful, heartbreaking, exhilarating experience with the world."
"Thank You Laura for sharing, for teaching and spreading loving kindness. "
"I think I love you. You bring good things into my life, or remind me of things I love and know, but have let go of."
"Laura, you are so good for me. I laugh and sniffle and get the shivers when I read your essays. Thanks so much for letting all your wonderfulness run around loose."
"Heart-achingly beautiful, your words and how you reveal your truth."
"Thank you so much for who you are and what you share with the world. Your mere being transforms lives as it has transformed mine. This particular post did to my heart what water does to parched soil."
"Thank you for your gentle words that are packed full of wisdom. I have been struggling with the concept of what words can do to another person when they are negative words. Your words are the flip side of our word power, and shows how delightfully powerful kind words can be. Thank you."
"Once again Laura Lavigne takes you on an adventure of the heart. She has a way of pulling you right in the car with her. Asking you to consider changing a fear to taking thoughtful action. Whether she's teaching a class, leading a retreat or heading for a happiness sprinkling, Laura will invite you to shed old ways of thinking and be completely authentic. Join in!"
"Essentially pure love.
I enjoy how Laura is kind to herself and to us other humans who dance in and out of each other's lives. "
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You can count on Laura for warmth, humor, charm, and a lift to your day and your heart. She inspires me to be braver than I am, and to love the world out loud. She's a gem, and a generous one at that!"
I write because this is the way I am able to taste life more deeply.